In today's thinking I have asked that question with the word "bigger" being synonymous with "larger, higher, more, etc." and it has absolutely no underlying sexual overtones. Today it more speaks of do I become a "zealot, over achiever, beyond normal person".
In the past 3 days I have had to be uncomfortable in life as a result of some form of flu, 36 hour type. All the standard feelings; headache, cramping, soreness, etc.". It was my choice to lead an exercise group which I do each Saturday. This effort was created and exists today as a workout for me and for those that want to join in "gratis".
While it is true that I conduct this weekly workout for myself a small part of me hopes and believes that others will indeed benefit from its existence. I therefore conduct the exercise program to a very high degree of correctness and effort. During this weeks session I was faced with the choice, a conscious choice of either conduct myself at this session in the highest fashion as always or to allow my malfunctioning body set the pace and tone. First things first. I allowed myself to move to the rear of the workout and let and healthy functioning person to conduct the workout.
As the leader put us through her workout I did acknowledge that my body wanted to be cautious, it did want to set its on pace and flow and that I needed to allow it do what it knew naturally.
The thought zipped through my head that "bigger" aka. higher, stronger, etc. was the way, my spirit said; "no, just relax and let the inherent spirit of Life direct this workout for you". As a result I was able to do the workout completely, correctly and in consonance with all in attendance. My energy "qi" was able to flow at the amplitude and level required to effect the correct energy flow desired from the workout.
At the end of the hours workout I felt great. I was not totally healed yet I was energized to a level that made me aware of how much I liked paying attention to my Spirit when I heard the answer that essentially said; "no, bigger aka, stronger higher, faster" was not better. The attached "qi gong" short video is offered in an effort to share the way of "less or small is better" as I know it today.
You would think that simple age old philosophical question would have been answered for me long ago. Maybe I was not listening. Could be. Has happened before.
Love and light
richard
